When I was eight, my parents went through a bitter divorce that had a profound impact on our family and the shaping of my own self-identity. The result of their divorce and the abandonment of my father led to decades of emotional abuse inflicted by my mother. My damaged childhood taught me how to detach myself from the emotional connection one finds in relationships and intimacy. Through the years, I have built walls to veil truths; I have constructed boundaries to control perception and judgment for fear of being abandoned by the significant people that matter most in my adult life.
The Cedars Run Silent is an investigation of self through metaphor. It’s about harboring secrets and living with the tension of suppressing truths. Ultimately it is a visual narrative that explores the presence of shame, vulnerability and insecurity and the internal struggle to openly accept the deep emotional connection one finds in relationships and intimacy.